Category: Real Life- Author’s Posts

• Healing, But Make It Both Witchy and Well-Researched

  

  For a long time, I thought I had “outgrown” my old interests. The books on witchcraft. The obsession with psychology and neuroscience. The quiet rituals that helped me regulate my nervous system before I had language for what that even meant. Somewhere along the way, curiosity got labeled as impractical, intuition as silly, and rest…

  Jessica Blake

  December 22, 2025

  Real Life- Author’s Posts

  emotional-release, intuition, mental-health, neuroscience, psychology, rest, self-preservation, tarot, therapy, witchcraft

• Watching a Narcissist Spiral (author’s post)

  I talked to my first attorney today. It was not the relief I thought I’d feel. In fact, afterward, I started feeling physically ill. Like sore throat, body aches, the whole nine. I was fine before the phone call, but my entire body just gave in afterward. I have moments where I ask myself if…

  Jessica Blake

  December 16, 2025

  Real Life- Author’s Posts

  family, fiction, life, love, mental-health, narcissim, narcissists, rebulding, relationships, writing

• Tonight almost broke me (author’s post)

  Tonight I almost said flat out I want a divorce. It wasn’t some earth shattering fight. I was just blamed, gaslit, belittled and talked down to all in one swoop. I gray-rocked and I hid my emotions but I almost fell apart. I almost burst into tears because I cannot take it anymore. I cannot…

  Jessica Blake

  December 10, 2025

  Real Life- Author’s Posts

  divorce, family, grief, mental-health, narcissim, narcissists, relationships

• The Crazy Parts of Healing

  I have been gray-rocking the shit out of my future ex-husband. For those of you who are not well-versed in the narcissistic world (1. I’m fucking envious), that means you give them nothing every time they try to pick a fight or manipulate you or hurt you in some way. You basically provide the dullest,…

  Jessica Blake

  December 8, 2025

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• I deserve a life that doesn’t hurt (author’s post)

  

  I have been using ChatGPT a lot to plan my future. Finances, finding attorneys, creating scripts for bad situations my husband puts myself or kids in. Even analyzing text messages or what he says or does to ground me in reality. It’s been insanely helpful. This morning I almost felt guilty for all this planning.…

  Jessica Blake

  December 6, 2025

  Real Life- Author’s Posts

  divorce, family, grief, life, mental-health, narcissists, relationships, writing

• Life is funny sometimes (author post)

  

  I climbed on my Peloton treadmill tonight (yes, I know that’s the whitest mom shit I’ve ever said but it’s who I am. I own that). My name on there is Fittestbyforty. I turn 38 in January… I giggled to myself because now my goal is #divorcedbyforty. I guess the goals could be one in…

  Jessica Blake

  December 3, 2025

  Real Life- Author’s Posts

  fitness, life, mental-health, narcissists, relationships, self discovery, writing

• An author side note- truly feeling alive

  I truly am starting to come back to myself. This morning I took a selfie and posted it on social media because I felt fucking beautiful. I don’t remember the last time I felt that way. I feel softer, lighter, more myself than I have in almost a decade. Im getting my color back y’all…

  Jessica Blake

  December 2, 2025

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• Tolerate It.

  I was in my car on the way to work and the song “Tolerate It,” by Taylor Swift came on. I listened and then listened to it again. If that isn’t the anthem for victims of narcissists, I don’t know what is. Here is a portion of the lyrics: I wait by the door like…

  Jessica Blake

  November 6, 2025

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  grief, life, love, mental-health, narcissim, narcissists, relationships, writing

• “You Hate Me”

  A few days ago, he tried to convince me he was having an affair. Again, whether he is or isn’t, I don’t give a shit. I wish he would just commit to leaving if that was the case. Regardless of that, he wanted me to act jealous, and when I didn’t, he got pissed that…

  Jessica Blake

  November 2, 2025

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  life, love, mental-health, writing

• “Josh” and “Alice”

  

  I wrote this very short story in 2019… when he and I moved in together. It’s so clearly about he and I, I don’t even remember writing it. She stared out into the darkness as they sat on their hotel balcony. She was sitting next to the man of her dreams but felt lonelier than…

  Jessica Blake

  October 27, 2025

  Real Life- Author’s Posts

  family, life, love, mental-health, narcissim, narcissists, relationships, writing